"Don't just go with the flow BE the Flow." My mantra and Challenge today and for the days ahead. .
I'm channeling these words as I embrace the "shift" in our birth plan. .
As a nurse I am totally on board with doing what's best and safest for baby Ky and I if she stays breech. A c-section wouldn't be my preferred choice, but I also have faith that what needs to happen will happen. .
But as a mama I'd be lying if I didn't admit that I'm having trouble being "In flow" with the idea of not being able to have her naturally like I did Mac. .
But as a reoccurring theme in my life God serves up ample opportunities for me to loosen my grip of control in situations like these, and operate from a place of faith instead of fear. .
So it's my focus is to be calm, optimistic, and open to whatever needs to happen. Going with "the flow" as possible 😊 .
As always good vibes that she decides to flip, and grace and peace for whatever plan unfolds in the weeks ahead.
Mahalo to my friend 📸 @thesophiaco for capturing Ky and I "in the flow" at our Mermaiding Maternity Shoot 😍😘
Phenomenal day in the alpine yesterday 🏔 Finally was able to make it to Upper Chaos to check out some of the amazing boulders such as Eternia | V11 | that @cvalencia31 is exiting feet first here. Psyched to have survived the hike with a mondo third day on 💪🏼 I was even able to show up and ⚡️ the awesome power endurance bloc Skipper D | V8 | 🙌🏼 Almost put down some hard boulders but left a lot of unfinished business. Most of all psyched to return to watch Cesar polish off Eternia and to hopefully link together the rig as well.
Psyched to have placed 23rd in my first SCS Youth Nationals! So proud of how I climbed considering I couldn't train as much as I would've liked because of pulled hamstrings and finger tendon injuries. I'm so excited to start my last youth season this upcoming year and can't believe it's my last with all the amazing people I've met over the years.
Also, huge congrats to my teammates who CRUSHED this weekend and a thank you to my incredible coaches. You guys inspire me daily and push me to be the best version of myself in every way. I love you guys and thank you for an amazing 8 years of being my family and making this the perfect way to finish off my team Earth Treks career💙💚
Coffee at 3:30? Yup! 🙋🏽 Just got done spending some important time on ME with my personal development book "Present Over Perfect", got the laundry folded and put away, and checked in with my team. 🙏🏽 •
Now with my coffee in hand and some 90s boy band tunes playing in the background it's time to tackle 117 emails! Thank you so much for your patience if you are waiting on one from me! I promise you will be getting a reply in the next couple hours! 🙌🏽💕 #HappyHealthyHumble#coachlifeisthebestlife
Guess what this mama is doing tonight?!? Our budget thanked us a few years back when I started making homemade laundry soap -- not to mention fewer chemicals and additives than store bought. Can you believe it only costs about $20 to make and it lasts over a year for our family of 4?!? Say what?!? Win - Win! #beautymeetsbeast
My mind never stops. My thoughts tick by like a clock. Tick Tock! With such urgency like time is about to run out.
Wasting away my days fighting a war no one believe exists.
So many people try to make me see the truth but I am not blind. I am completely aware. It is the whole are incapable of believing what they can't see.
People think I fear being alone in my mind, but it's the only safe place I know. Its the only place I can go where no one can reach me. It's peaceful and it's quiet. Although the voices are always talking. When I'm alone they can run wild. When I am around people they are interrupted and they get mad. The scream louder the more I try to ignore them. They just want the ear of the room and that can only be done when I am alone. There isnt enough space to process unfamiliar surroundings or the sheer amount of information I observe. My world is vast both past present and future. I dont have time to worry myself with the last.
I feel like ive been brought up in a world I know I dont fit into. I feel like ive been trying to be jammed into a box I dont fit into my whole entire life but everyone has finally given up. But they dont admit that the box doesnt fit, its still me they scorn. In the confines of a world so ridgid and stiff I find it hard to survive with such a composition. I wasnt built for a world of order or routine because who I am fluxuates with such highs and lows instability is my middle name. People of this world despise unstable because it threatens their order.
When I am alone I dont feel as much of an outcast. They think being exiled is a punishment, but to me, its my saviour. A place I can be free from the chains that shackle me. I can just be whatever it is I am on that day without the pressures of expectation. I can exist without feeling like I fail at even the most basic human need. Keeping myself alive. I dont thrive, I dont even live. I merely survive with each day that goes by, getting to know what challenges I will face today because most likely they were different yesterday and will be different tomorrow.
I was beyond excited, shaking, heart racing, teary eyed, and proud.
Proud of my coaching journey.
Proud of all the hard work.
But most of all proud of MY TEAM.
Without my TEAM-I would not be the coach I am today. My girls are the REASON I show up every morning, the reason I have fire in my belly every day, and the one thing that makes this all worth it.
Being recognized as a THREE STAR DIAMOND coach was INCREDIBLE, but not at all possible without every member on the team.
This one's for you girls! WE DID IT! 💕 xoxo #happyhealthyhumble#thismoment