You can't get to a point where you LOVE your reflection IF you're not willing to learn the lesson through your SELF HATRED... I spent years of my life avoiding full length mirrors, cameras or reflective windows when walking down the city streets. I would cover myself up with oversized EVERYTHING to hid my body. I would stand behind someone or a prop when pictures were taken to ensure I wasn't fully exposed.
I was hiding.
Hiding my body, hiding my eating disorder, hiding my behaviors, hiding my truth, hiding from myself.....hiding from life.
I put the facade on of always being so "happy" and "outgoing" yet internally I was filled with such hatred.
Truth is, until we learn the LESSON that God, Source, Higher Power (whatever resonates with you) is trying to tell us, then the struggle we're facing will continue to surface.
The lesson I learned through self hatred was that I needed to shift my perception and internal reality. I needed to start understanding this hatred, this anger, this FEAR that I was burying deep inside of me. I started to get curious about it and walk toward it instead of RUNNING away from it.
I slowly started learning the lesson and for me that was to change the NARRATIVE from fear to accepting... then to liking... then to loving my body.
What is it that you struggle with in particular with your food and body? What's been HOUNDING you for years that just when you catch that glimpse of light and freedom, the struggle surfaces yet again taking you down?
What's the lesson that you are supposed to be learning?
I challenge you to open your mind, open your heart and accept this message.
All my love.
Ehilà! Buon pranzo tesori 💕 come sta andando la vostra giornata? La mia tutto sommato ok, ho parlato con la mia psicologa e mi ha rassicurata un sacco, adesso mi sento molto più calma e molto più motivata. Ho parlato con una ragazza (può avere sui 25 anni) che ha portato suo figlio lì, per presunto autismo, e ho notato come anche con lei la gente è cattiva e punta sempre il dito nella piaga, facendole notare delle sciocchezze che fa suo figlio come se fossero dei segnali dall’allarme del disturbo, mentre secondo me, per quanto ho potuto vedere, non è affatto così. Mi è sembrato un bambino sanissimo e soprattutto bellissimo 😍😍😍. Mi hanno consegnato l’esito della risonanza magnetica e a parte che ho un micro adenoma all’ipofisi non si capisce nulla, dunque venerdì ne parlerò con la neuropsichiatra e vedremo un po’. Comunque, #pranzo con: 30gr di semolino, 80 grammi di Philadelphia active ed insalata di finocchi e pomodori condita con sale ed olio. Buon proseguimento di giornata tesori 💕
This here is truth! As we come back home to the body and move into fully feeling suppressed emotionality we release so much. Not only do we release the energetic heaviness of carrying those emotions, but we also release the physical manifestations of them.
Ever fallen out of a diet/exercise routine?
How does it make you feel?
Join me live today over in the free community at noon ET where I’ll be talking about this, as well as the FEAR we have when it comes to our bodies, AND what it takes to break free of these things.
Let me know in the comments if you would like the link!💃🏼💃🏼🙌🏻
We are supposed to enjoy food, it’s ok that it excites our senses. I help women find balance and their natural, innate way toward a satisfying relationship with food and body. If you teeter between crazy restrictions and obsession and then jump to eat the world, working toward healing your relationship with food and body could be the most important work you do...so that you’re then free to find your next most important work💕
Never forget you have a body that contains infinite WISDOM.
In the face of neglect, punishment, restriction and undernourishment, our body does the best it can to have our backs. And she, this temple of yours, is a master survivalist 💕.
She will fight to protect you at all costs, including making hormonal shifts (oh hey fight or flight!) to keep you alive because she knows, that if she doesn’t get what she needs, or if the burden becomes too great to bear, she’ll have to start breaking down herself in order to keep you a functioning human being.
If she senses she doesn’t have what she needs, she turns on red alert 🚨 . This might look like a lost period, or infertility, anxiety, bloating, painful periods. Or it might look more serious and end up in autoimmune diseases, syndromes and disorders.
But you know what? The early signs of your body needing nutrients shows up in two ways:
Your brain 🧠 , that 3 pounds of grey matter between your skull, will override your body if it has to. It will neglect your “goalz” in favor of your LIFE. There does come a tipping point where it will tell you to eat everything and anything in sight because you.need.fuel.
So no, you aren’t undisciplined for ending up at the bottom of a pint of ben and jerry’s 🍦 and elbows deep in a bag of sweet potato chips. You’re not being “bad” for craving every food in the book or weak because you can’t stop thinking of donuts.
Let’s get one thing clear sister.
A well-fed, well nourished woman doesn’t have to binge and she’s not obsessed with food. She eats filling, nourishing meals that fill her up and keep her satisfied for hours. She doesn’t go into each meal “hangry.” 🙅🏻♀️
What’s one way you can nourish yourself before you go to bed tonight? 💫
I thought that cafe zauq had the best bread and butter pudding in Lahore until I tried it at @thebrasseriepk.
I absolutely love the food and the ambience will give a detailed review later but for now it’s about this dessert that has my heart.
Good value for money💯
Good morning everybody.
Living with a binge eating disorder isn't easy. I don't think anybody who doesn't have one, can understand. Food overtakes my life everyday if I let it. I will eat when I'm stuffed, like wayy over eat after already being full. It's an addiction.
Often I will feel so guilty I make myself throw up to make my conscience feel somewhat better about what I've done and continue to do to my health and body.
I wasn't always like this. I was healthy once. I dont know what happened in my life exactly 3 years that caused this mental bug in my head go keep growing,but it's a monster and I have let myself gain 50 pounds in that time because of it.
I havent been proud of myself the last 2 days. I havent been working out, been bingeing,and not logging B/C of guilt.
Forgiving myself&Moving on. One day at a time I will fight.
I've also decided I'm going to start going to WW meetings. I thought I could do this on my own, but I'm beginning to think otherwise.
ciao ragazze. Oggi va male, tanto male. Non come la giornata in sè, ma per il cibo. Del merluzzo in foto, nè ho mangiato solo 3/4 pezzi, e non ho usato l’olio nell’insalats.
Il fatto è sempre lo stesso: mia nonna mette un sacco, ma proprio un sacco d’olio. Dico io, tu sai che per me è impossibile già mettercene uno di cucchiaino, tu ce ne metti minimo 300 ml.
A vedere tutto quell’olio mi è venuta una crisi e sono andata in panico, ma alla fine non ho più pianto e ho lasciato il pesce. Avevo fatto grandi passi avanti, ma sto andando di nuovo indietro, e non so nemmeno perché. Non mi vedo bene, ma non avevo mai fatto così dall’inizio del mio ricovero.
Ora credo che mi riposo, poi studio e alla fine vado al centro commerciale.
#merluzzo e #lattuga#bingeeatingrecovery#bingeeating#anorexianerviosa#anorexiarecovery#anorexicgirl#lunch