"At that moment it struck me: Given the dark fears we feel when we experience loss, nothing is more generous and loving than the willingness to embrace grief in order to forgive. To be forgiven is to be loved....And that includes self-forgiveness too." - Brene Brown
The Journey of the Heart
I'm unsure how many hours, days, weeks perhaps my eyes have traced each golden curve, each mesmerizing geometry inside of sunflowers. They hold my gaze, my heart, my soul. With their light that goes within and with out. Their resonance of pure joy rippling endlessly through the universe. And, today, while I was taking each sunflower in, I saw how my heart's, our hearts' journey parallels these brilliant illuminators. Of slowly, yet decidedly letting layer after layer (inflorescence after inflorescence) open into the grandest, sweetest of pollinators. While the innermost flowers stay tucked in--waiting to be revealed--waiting until one after another, and, at just the right, right moment, they unfold. Burst, become. All they always were. Their very essence joy, love. Such love, love. .
Love asks us to look at what really matters to us, and at what we truly value. And love asks us to bravely defy expectations in order to be true to ourselves. Love wants us to marry our own soul. 🙏🌟@MegganWaterson
There are times you’ll feel like the walls are caving in on you, with pressure from all sides, until you feel so squished you can barely breathe. I call this “the narrow place.” In the narrow place, you may experience doubt, fear, confusion, and dark nights of the soul. In this narrow place full of shadows, you may even question whether my light has been extinguished. But trust me. The narrow place happens in the birth canal just before you’re reborn. On the other side of the narrow place lies great expansive fields of sunflowers where you can spin and cartwheel and throw your arms to the bright, shining sun. On the other side lies light so bright you’ll need sunglasses. And on the other side lies all the clarity that will illuminate why you needed to be in the narrow place to begin with. Let yourself be born. Inner Pilot Light-ish
I’ve been working all week (and since January TBH) planning for this year’s 2nd annual girls getaway weekend also known as RADCAMP: A Body Positive Boot Camp For Feminists. It’s only open to ten members of the Boise Rad Fat Collective and the spots fill up fast for this radical weekend of body positivity in the mountain town of McCall, Idaho. 👊🏼 ⛰ 💚 And when Melissa contacted me and offered to donate her expertise to make custom warrior bracelets for both my adult and teens camps as gifts to remember our extraordinary weekends together I was thrilled. And tasked with the daunting task of deciding what they should say. The girls’ camp was easier - RAD is short for radical and an empowering reminder of all they learned and all they are. For the womens’ camp I decided on one of the most powerful phrases from one of @brenebrown’s books - something I repeated in my head as a mantra of sorts often during the first year doing press after my stand for self-love went viral and something I said right before I went on stage to give my @tedx_official talk: “Don’t shrink. Don’t puff up. Just stand your sacred ground.” 👊🏼🖤💪🏼🖤 #Repost @thebravesparrow ・・・
Sneak Peek for @idaho_amy 💛 Because women need to support other women. And because our bodies are sacred... in every size and shape.
"STAND YOUR SACRED GROUND"
Quote from @brenebrown
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I'm proud to provide a small token, a keepsake of sorts, for the attendees of her Youth & Adult #radcamp 💛
#thebravesparrow#words#logophile#quotegram#quotes#connection#brenebrown#standyoursacredground#amypencebrown#radcamp#bodypositivity#bopo#loveyourbody#womensupportingwomen#idahoamy#hilda#activist#knowyourworth#selflove#youarebeautiful#beyoutiful#handstamped#idaho#boise#jewelry Repost @thebravesparrow
it is tempting, you know
to go back to doing
the same old thing
in order to keep getting
to the same place.
it is actually tempting
to go back
to the reason i’m here
in the first place.
it is for a lot of us.
not because it’s right
but because it’s safe.
let’s turn away from safety
now is the time
to get a taste
.— savannah leigh b.
“The mark of a wild heart is living out the paradox of love in our lives. It’s the ability to be tough and tender, excited and scared, brave and afraid—all in the same moment. It’s showing up in our vulnerability and our courage, being both fierce and kind.”
Brené Brown, Braving the Wilderness #brenebrown#quotes#bravingthewilderness#wildheart#gratitude
Pretty cool news - @theeverygirl_ approached me a few weeks ago asking me to do a little write up on a week of outfits, and it was just published today! (link in bio) 🎉🎉🎉
If you had asked me any time before this year if I thought anyone would ever be asking me ANYTHING about fashion, I'd have rolled my eyes - and here’s why:
For as long as I remember, perfectionism has stolen my desire to play, experiment, just have fun, and try new things.
If I wasn’t already sure I was good at something, I’d either put IT down or use some self-depreciating bs to put myself down (while maintaining as much of a good appearance as possible). The thought of someone seeing me try and fail or look stupid or weak etc felt way worse than just not trying at all.
One of the many cool things that therapy and coming home to myself in the body I'm in has been a relaxation of the suffocating perfectionism I've struggled with for as long as I can remember. As its grip on me has lessened, I've allowed myself to just play around and enjoy things more - and especially as I’ve come to love my body just as it is, one of the things I’ve had fun experimenting with is fashion!
I'm not a fashion guru, but I sure do have fun and take joy in playing around with my style these days, and it was so cool and fun to write about it (and photograph myself in a week's worth of outfits - thanks to my awesome associate photog @hletourneau87 for the photos!) for The Everygirl! The link’s in my bio if you want to check it out!
And one more cool thing - an interview I did with my girl @paigemariephoto of @thelegalpaige was just published today too! I’ve taken today off and have been swimming at the lake and reading in our blow up pool, so it’s a happy day indeed ☀️🏞 link to that interview is in my bio as well! ❤️
🙌🏽❤️Psalm 16:11 🙌🏽❤️ Often times we look for joy in everything but God...
Our spouse, friends, position, materialism, experience, and the list goes on and on.
Our joy bucket has holes in it and can only be filled up by the presence of God.
Spend some time with Holy Spirit today and allow His presence to fill your joy tank.
Being guarded, protected and insusceptible to the winds of life is praised not only as a virtue, but as the emotional and mental ‘ideal’ in our society.
Who wants to be exposed? Who wants to be hurt? Who wants to be truly seen?
The vulnerability paradox as stated by #brenebrown “It’s the first thing I look for in you, and the last thing I want you to see in me.”
The truth is....YES, being vulnerable can make us more susceptible to hurt, disappointment, and heartbreak.
But denying ourselves the lowest of lows from the spectrum of emotions of the human experience also denies us of the highest of highs as well.
We don’t want it, but we need it.
To be vulnerable is to be courageous.
Vulnerability stands defiantly in the face of fear.
To close yourself off from,
To deny your own #vulnerability,
Is closing yourself off from life itself.
Find your #courage to be vulnerable and find your authentic self. 💖
Brene Brown dropped another awesome quotable I thought I'd share for your Friday evening. It's a reminder I know I need, especially on social sometimes... everything you see on social media is everyone's filtered life highlights. 😥 Whatever you're going through, don't shame yourself for having problems. We all have problems, don't stress about having them! Let's just accept the struggles are part of being human, tackle the real roots of the issues, then choose to believe you're going to get through this. You've gotten through so much so far.. you've got this. 😊
Hellooo #fridayintroductions! Kicking off with a fun fact: I had somewhere between 2-4 jobs from the time I was 12 through most of life. Sometimes this meant bartending until 4am and getting to grad school by 8. Others it meant being to work with the grounds crew at 7, planting flowers before sunrise. Years later, this meant commuting between Early Intervention clients for one company and clinic sessions for another, all about meals in the car. 🙋🏼♀️
Even some close friends have been surprised by this and it makes me question if I fell into the shame trap of females over the years: doing all of the things, and making it look effortless. Read: masking individuality in favor of “fitting in” - not what’s up.
So here I am to say absolutely none of my life has been without some (or lots of) legwork despite serendipitous things happening again and again in my favor along the way.
Now I am loud and proud and can say certainly that these and the other roles I played became the biggest gift in getting me to here.
This is a pic taken circa 2012 by Yaz, a photographer I met to do a “TFP”: Trade for Pics, ie you get free pictures and they get free rights to them. I was in ever-need of updated headshots for my tradeshow “modeling” days where I worked for a slew of companies in Chicago + Detroit areas, a side hustle of 10 years.
Whatever the reason, if you are playing multiple cards right now whether it is in with the littles or out of the home: I see you. If all of the work is what you love, go crazy. If it isn’t, I hope it leads you to what you do.
There is always someone who wants to help or toss out an opportunity when you’re busy trusting the process yet making moves. The universe gives us exactly what we need. Always.
But it doesn’t mean there aren’t mountains moving to get there.
*shout out to @steph.herring for making this formatting possible🎉🎉🎉
I spoke to an elderly woman today that called to complain about some work my company did at her house. After talking to her for a bit, I discovered that she wasn’t actually mad at the work, she was mad that her doctor told her she’s too old to receive a surgery for her back. It had nothing to do with me, but she was in a position where she was scared and she took it out on me. She apologized and repeatedly thanked me for talking to her. It was nice to help her figure that out and calm her down.
I frequently talk to people about why understanding psychology and gaining emotional intelligence is so beneficial. Even if you think you are perfectly well balanced and you don’t need to fix anything, it helps you interact with people who aren’t. You begin to recognize when people are in struggle and develop empathy for what they are going through. But also, no one is perfect, and you’ll begin to uncover the ways in which you can improve as well. Don’t be afraid to accept that you aren’t perfect. Perfection is a lie. Perfection would mean there was nothing left to learn. Nothing to improve. How boring would that be?
So if you value any of this, but you don’t know where to start or you think it’s too difficult, I encourage you to do this. Go to YouTube, and search for a TED Talk called Brené Brown - The Power of Vulnerability. It’s a short primer video for her book titled the same. It’s incredibly short, don’t be afraid. The reason this resonated with me is that it’s based on 13 years of behavioral research. It’s science! After you watch that first video, get the first book (I prefer the audiobook because it’s read by her, and she’s an incredible story teller). You’re hooked now, keep going! Figure yourself out! Don’t wait until your midlife crisis to start living wholeheartedly.
@brenebrown @ted #brenebrown#vulnerability#vulnerabilityiscourage#vulnerabilityisstrength#leanintojoy#thepowerofvulnerability#ted#tedtalks#tedtalk#courage#mindfullness#mindfulliving#mentalliberation#emotionalintelligence#evolvethedefinition#plussizefashion#plussizemodel#plusmalefashion#plussize#psootd#plusfashionpositive#effyourbeautystandards#fuckyourego
Question... I’m considering doing some limited edition small print runs of a handful of vulnerabilities from this series, at (probably) 5x7.” Which ones spoke to you most? Which would you love to hang on your wall, gift to a friend, rip up and toss on a fire for therapy, etc? Please comment and let me know!
Today @glennondoyle posted on Facebook a sweet story between her daughter and museum volunteer that I loved so much. (Posted in my InstaStory.) 💕 I’ve shared before about my absolute love of pearls, semi-precious, stones, crystals and agates for precisely the reason Glennon shares in her post. Lots of things *shouldn’t* be here. They aren’t perfect. They might even be accidental, like a pearl or an amethyst, but, it has been my very humble opinion, especially after 20 years or so in the fashion industry, that everything that is truly beautiful is imperfect. Perfection never breeds beauty. Never ever. #shinebrightlikeadiamond ✨
“Authenticity is not something we have or don’t have. It’s a practice – a conscious choice of how we want to live. Authenticity is a collection of choices that we have to make every day. It’s about the choice to show up and be real. The choice to be honest. The choice to let our true selves be seen.” Wise words from Brene Brown.
When we choose to work on leading a truly authentic existence, we choose to experience life to its fullest. Never be afraid to remove the mask and reveal your true self.