Today is a most special anniversary for me. Two years ago today, I became a certified yoga instructor. Although my yoga journey began 20 years ago, and never had an intention to teach, something in me stirred three years ago after the loss of my sweet dog and companion, Love, and a divorce to a man I should never have married. Both relationships I was longing for something that was missing; connection, love, and a sense of “this is what I need.” Although my sweet Love filled a hole of the missing piece of family due to the trauma of child abuse and neglect as a child, and she provided my first real sense of intense love, something I had never really had due to my fierce defense system. Once divorced and on my own for the first time in a long time, I stepped back into a studio and on my mat. The shifts and transformations were astounding. I went deeper and deeper; released and surrendered, cried, laughed, left angry, left joyful and relieved, discovered myself and my truth, and opened my heart. I made the decision to enroll in a 200 hour training. Again, not to teach but to deepen my personal practice. I had that intention until about a month before graduation and then the light went off and the pull to share this practice with others was ignited. Am I the “best “teacher out there? Far from it. Am I providing what I know and have a deep passion for sharing with others? Yes! And I am still the student. I still take as many classes as I can. And I am getting ready to take another 200 hour teacher training as a Kundalini teacher. I grow. I learn. I share. I am still that little lotus struggling through the Muddy Waters to reach the surface of the water towards the sun so I can continue blooming and thriving and becoming stronger. I learned how to connect to myself. To delve deeper into me and my intuition. My inner guru. My teacher. I learned how to take my walls down and to open my heart. To trust. To listen. To not be so damn defensive and take everything so personally. And then, as I learn my lessons with myself, the universe decided to teach me how to open to love from another. It provided me the most supportive man who honors me and pushes me to be my best.