🌻 ”My sweet child, I hope you fall in love with being alive.
I hope you pick flowers and read books and understand that life is so much more than a text from a boy you won’t even remember in a couple of years.
I hope you feel pursued. I hope you have the best of friends, and I even hope you get in trouble together. I hope you make fun memories and take too many pictures and scream at the top of your lungs on roller coasters.
I hope you swim in the depths of the oceans and feel the dirt underneath your fingernails when you climb mountains. I hope you know the joys of genuine laughter, and I hope you know the difference between wisdom and test scores.
I hope you understand that you can be anything you want to be, but you have to work hard to get it. I hope you do more than sit around and complain about the things that could change - because I hope you are the change.
I hope you journal and write every thought down. I hope you learn how to skate and eat your fruits and vegetables. I hope you treat your body well and respect yourself.
But I also hope you have fun. In fact, I hope you have unapologetic fun. Because my love, I hope you fall in love with being alive.” 🌻
🌙 I feel like I'm in a weird in between place in my life. It's like I'm in a void between death and rebirth. Like the next chapter is just within reach and I really want to read it, but I need to get some sleep before I can.
The other day I was talking with a friend about how sick I am of sitting around and not working. It's been 2 years of unemployment, and even longer since I've had a "job." I needed to stay home and take care of my kids, especially after what we had been through.
Next year will be my first season as a full time flower farmer and I am oh-so eager to get started! Surrounding myself with colour and beauty and birds and bees.... Ahh! It's heaven to me! 🌸
But we are heading into Winter, and I'm not nearly ready.
Unfortunately, it's just not time yet.
In that conversation, my friend told me that I should embrace the calm and the "doing nothing" and you know what?
She's right. I'm going to be one busy woman very soon.
So.. time to prop up my feet, recline in my coffee drinking chair and experience deep rest, floating around in the void, waiting for the next moment to arrive. 😏