Saturday, a day to recover from work. A little bit of #selfcare. I think it’s a shame that society views people in a negative light based off their choses to seek comfort or encouragement from others, as if a sign of weakness or broken. I bought this book excited to read because I want to attempt to try and love myself a bit more and show more worth to myself and myself alone.This powerhouse of a woman #chideraeggerue @theslumflower wrote a book of self love and empowerment within yourself, to allow yourself to walk through flames and come out completely renewed. At first I was scared to post this. What would people think? That I’m a sad alone person?? Would they think that im “one of those women” maybe I am. Maybe I’m not. I don’t care. This books has been good to me for the first couple of pages and I’m going to sit in this bath with these comforts (weed pen and face mask included) and not care to have to convince anyone of anything. #fuckyourstandards#whatatimetobealone#learningtolovemyself
This post goes out to all my followers. I am overwhelmed with the amount of outpouring love I have gotten on my instagram in these last two days. I only share my struggles with ptsd, depression, and anxiety because mental health is something that has been shunned in our society and swept under the rug. You all make me so grateful to fight each day. Not every day will be a great day do great anyway.
Last night I shared with my best friend how I had been feeling that day. Do you know how hard it is to look your best friend in the eye and say I feel suicidal? He didn't say a word just gave me a sad smile and let me take the time I needed to crawl out from under my bed. We talked about our shitty days we had then watched a great new cartoon on netflix until he got sleepy. Then we shared some my little pony because he had never seen it. Just having someone there who understands and let's you be you is one of the greatest gifts of all.
As I hung out with him I had a new poly follower reach out to me. We talked for an hour or so when I was at my worst. I'm so grateful for you. Then I've had more comments from other beautiful people and a dear friend who messaged me reaching out. I'm just blessed beyond measure. Keep fighting and please don't give up.
Not everyone's gonna love you, love anyway. Not everyone is going to want you to succeed, succeed anyway. Not everyone will listen, express yourself anyway. Please do all these things for you only get one life, live it the way you need to anyway. I love you all and wanted to thank you each from the bottom of my heart. Stay the beautiful radiant souls you are💘💯💘
My doctor said to me yesterday: “If you lose 10 more pounds, then you’ll be at the perfect weight.” I call bullshit. The perfect weight is the one you feel most confident, most strong, most beautiful at. And let me tell, I felt that way 10 pounds heavier, I feel it right now & I’ll feel it when I’m 10 pounds lighter. So no doctor, I will not lose 10 more pounds to be perfect. I am perfect now. #bodypositivity#fuckyourstandards