23 июня: День пробуждает в Овнах высокую эмоциональность и подталкивает к риску. Если вы пребываете в ослеплении чувств, вам будет нелегко выбрать верную тактику. Звезды советуют контролировать свои душевные порывы на той стадии, когда еще возможно остановиться. Импульс к действию или к острому переживанию способна дать ревность, чувственность, зависть, явная или мнимая неудача. Подпитку могут получить ваши давние разногласия с друзьями, любимыми людьми, деловыми партнерами, идеологическими противниками.
🌊And suddenly came a day in which my reflection at the mirror was no more avoided with terror, but it was embraced with genuine self-love.
It was not a decided moment. It was not even expected. It was just one of the innumerable gifts that recovery has given me.
Because yes recovery hurts as fuck, recovery seems like it wanna kills you more than ED itself sometimes, especially when you are living without believing it.
But if you pursue on it, if iyou trust in the process and if you truly give to it just one possibility; it will surprise you with something far more great than you can imagine.
🌊The ED told you infinite lies about happiness, appreciation, love, life and whatever. It’s normal that now you don’t believe in your-self and in life. You don’t believe absolutely in anything.
But if you only try to change the road, if you only try to change your stars; you will actually find yourself in believing in the greatness of living. 🌊Looking at my reflection I don’t want anymore to destroy what I see, I’m not crying anymore without any control on my self.
Looking at my reflection I see the body that protect my soul, the vehicle of my existence. I see a fundamental component of my life, the one that actually allows me to be alive.
🌊I feel a profound respect for that reflection, it has came through a lot, more than it actually deserved to.
I’m just 21, I’ve got many years in front of me and I am the only person upon which I’m certain I can count in my life. I don’t want to fight a battle with that person. I don’t want to be angry with the only person that I know for sure I’ll spend my whole life.
I want to consider my body as my safe place, as my home; the place in which I could found love whenever I need to.
🌊For sure there will be up and downs, moment of fighting; but as in all true relations if they are built with #love, there will be #future. There will be #hope. There will be #growth. There will be #life.