Do you remember learning how to write your name? Tracing each letter and spelling it out with pride? Do you remember what it meant to you? How you were proud to know your name and be that person. You were proud because you were you. You wrote your name on everything. Walls even. Because it represents you. And you love and are proud of you. Then as we grow up we start to notice others. We learn to write their names. We see how they are different and eventually we start comparing. We see the differences and somehow decide that one must be better than the other. We view the world as letting only a few succeed. We don’t see how we can all win. So we decide in our head who is winning and who is losing the game of life. We judge others and we judge ourselves. And at some point most of us have a time where we don’t know what our name means. We don’t feel proud of the person behind it. We don’t feel like we know them.
Write your name down on paper and remember. Discover. Keep a picture of you as a kid on your mirror so when you look at yourself and start to judge you can look at that kid and remember. You were so lovable. You had personality traits that couldn’t be ignored. You were happy. Your weaknesses made funny stories more than anything. Your weaknesses and strengths made you up and you were proud of that. You knew your name and what it stood for. Re-find that. Feel empowered writing your name.
Disclaimer: I know this is a broad generalization and some people were robbed of their childhood, experiencing trauma or neglect that they skipped this stage all together and went straight to the pain of comparing, I don’t intend to invalidate those by speaking of these experiences as universal. Regardless, do what you can to find that self-love. It isn’t easy but it’s worth it.
“15 After I had retired to the place where I had previously designed to go, having looked around me, and finding myself alone, I kneeled down and began to offer up the desires of my heart to God... I saw a pillar of light exactly over my head, above the brightness of the sun, which descended gradually until it fell upon me. 17 It no sooner appeared than I found myself delivered from the enemy which held me bound. When the light rested upon me I saw two Personages, whose brightness and glory defy all description, standing above me in the air. One of them spake unto me, calling me by name and said, pointing to the other--This is My Beloved Son. Hear Him! 18 My object in going to inquire of the Lord was to know which of all the sects was right, that I might know which to join. No sooner, therefore, did I get possession of myself, so as to be able to speak, than I asked the Personages who stood above me in the light, which of all the sects was right (for at this time it had never entered into my heart that all were wrong)--and which I should join. 19 I was answered that I must join none of them, for they were all wrong; and the Personage who addressed me said that all their creeds were an abomination in his sight; that those professors were all corrupt; that: “they draw near to me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me, they teach for doctrines the commandments of men, having a form of godliness, but they deny the power thereof.” .
This is the account of the prophet Joseph Smith who founded our church, when he was able to see God the Father and Jesus Christ. He was able to then restore the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Dm me anytime and/ or check the link in my bio to learn more. I believe, because I have read the Book of Mormon that he translated and prayed to know if it was true and of God. I have received an answer that has changed my heart forever. ❤️ Changed my life for better and given me hope and joy in hard times. I still have hard times. I still have doubts and questions. I’m not perfect and I fail often. But this has given me a foundation. Pray, find out what you believe, and then do all you can to live whatever you believe.