Sprout to be
acrylics on wood
duo painting together with @rj_de_l_orme
We made this work during @3oeverfestival
Started painting on top of a fort, slept in a teepee and finished the work next to a pyramid. Amazing experience!
let us become queerer than our expectations because expectations are not queer; brother throws firecrackers into gay bars and now he is a cop excuse me deputy sheriff he wears the difference; let us cut the strings that tie us to normativity; lover orchestrates breakup with manipulation and becomes famous as I throw his dreams back into the ocean; let us break the rules that aren’t written; manic narcissist and academic uses epistemic violence to imprison diligence and I become his bloodiest subject; let us become what we believe we cannot achieve; I learn the most from the worst and feel best while approaching queerness. #queer#learning#growing#change#academia#police#narcissist#research#writing#art#verse#poetry#photography
Like a child
You meet someone and you love him so much. More than anyone else. Literally I've never loved anyone the way I love him.
Then life happens.
He did things that hurt me so much, and then past and present mixes up and then you're stuck in this hurt child modus. You can't change it, you can't think clearly and you do things that is hurting him too.. two hurt children hurting each other.
I wonder if there will be ever a way back. Will he ever get over this or will he be stuck in this feeling of pain..
The belief that what you can create yourself is better than what can be bought is an empowering and exhilarating notion whether it be vegetables, eggs, flowers, fruit or cannabis In our family we are proud to #growyourown
disclaimer: this is an old picture. because the truth of the matter is that i DONT have abs anymore. it still makes me uncomfortable sometimes how much my body has changed since starting this bulk. but what keeps me going is the fact that i know my goals. i know where i want to be, and i know that this is what i have to do to get there.
i know that it’s worth it. and getting to see the results in the end will be the most rewarding thing i can imagine. it’s what i worked for.
throughout this bulk i have also LEARNED so much! about myself, physically and mentally, about lifting, about the fitness community, about work ethic and dedication.
grateful for this bulk, my coach (ily @lexi_deyoung ), my best friends, and all that i am blessed with on a daily basis. so maybe i don’t have abs anymore. but in losing something so insignificant, i have gained SO. MUCH. MORE.
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