I’m always investigating my own mysteries of beliefs system.
And went through rather eye opening transformation many times.
I went deep, really deep inside.
Cried my eyes of, brought lots of relief to my hart and added all puzzles into one big square picture.
That time I’ve asked myself , like 1000s times - where is the love?
Where is the one , true love for me?
Universe tell me !
God tell me!
Friends , psychics ! I beg you - tell me!
Each time I got a different answer.
But the truest one I found within myslef.
Although all of them were true because my lost love was almost everywhere.
I give it away bit by bit!
Year by year!
I give it to my lovers - looking for bounced back of the same or greater amount .
It Never came! Just left me more empty. So I’ve searched further.
I give it to my employers where it’s been just tarnished and rejected.
I looked for it within friends - they could not understand .
I’ve asked my parents - they didn’t know how.
I give it all out - and got scraps !
Until I realised - that I forgot to give it to myself first.
I saw how much I’ve looked for outside stimulation and decided to claim it all back.
Step by step.
I needed to and still do Learn to find myself,to love myslef , to be myslef.
Because who Am I if all I have it’s in hands of others?
What happens to us when all of who we are is gone?
You really need to find the root of all that you do!
See why you act in certain way, be honest.
I guess you might also cry it all out, learn the hart song that releases 1000s of lifetimes in pain, see your therapist, mediatate- whatever works!
But you got to find this to change it. Otherwise you will go in loops.
And when I talk about self care, self development, investment in self- all I really mean is LOVE YOUSELF!
I’m not afraid to say I’m on that journey to.I’m proud of seeing me first! And if I can see myself then I can see you to.