For a long time I thought there was something wrong with me....in the sense that I am all of these things on this list and nobody else around me was. The great divide between artist and the rest. It was very isolating. And still is to some degree. Anyone who intimately knows a creative, knows we have a love affair with our isolation. My upbringing was such that my familial role was #scapegoat so psychologically EVERYTHING ever wrong was my fault. Once I got past that and really started working on me by learning to accept myself I was able to celebrate all of these wonderful and apparently enviable things my family and other people in my life once used to cut me down. .
I take all kinds of risks. I build it up and tear it back down to nothing. Stow cash & give it all away only to build it back up again. I empty my cup and the Lord fills it back up again. I change my mind so much I annoy myself sometimes. I attribute that to a full fledge love affair with learning and growing. I am never what I was the day before. I read like a hyperlexic; at least a book a day. So I know more today than I knew yesterday and my mind can't help but apply new knowledge to old paradigms. Evolution. Spiritual evolution. Is the quest of the artist. .
The one bit of this list that is the most detrimental for an artist I think is thinking with the heart. Our heart keeps our feelings. Feelings are not always facts. Matter of fact feelings rarely are facts. The key to success is learning NOT to think with your heart; and to first think logically....then and ONLY then ask the heart for the empathetic input. The other way around is very dangerous. Especially in a society lacking in empathy and full of narcissism. You'll stumble into all kinds of crazy lessons putting that heart first. The kicker is training yourself to ignore your natural instincts and instead condition yourself to listen to your spiritual ones. .
'It starts with me', that’s the sentence that remained in my head. During the EULAR congress in Amsterdam we had an inspiring meeting with the group of the Patient Research Partners (PRP). When I tell people that I am a Patient Research Partner then I quickly get the reaction: "Oh, you are a kind of q testperson for new medication?" Well, that is not what it is at all. In 2014 I was trained as PRP at ReumaNet, my national patient organisation and since then I’ve attended several European conferences and I’ve work in various working groups and patient panels🌎. A patient research partner is in the first place a patient who uses his or her experience as a tool, as a very useful source of information. We use our experience as a patient to improve the world of patients. That’s great, don’t you think 😍? We are also equal partners in a team of doctors, scientists and pharmaceutical companies. The voice of the patient is really heard. Trust me 😉. I am especially proud to be a part of this fantastic group of people. When we were listening to PRPs from the USA, Canada and Malta, about their activities, I was so impressed and began to smile. We each have our pain, our fatigue and our rheumatic condition. But we all have that beautiful fire in us. What a powerful energy is that? 'It starts with me', it starts with us the patients, and so it is☺️. So grateful that I could attend this great congress. I wish you all a lovely Sunday, with love from the EULAR conference in Amsterdam 😘 #EULAR2018#amsterdam#Rai#congress#patient#patientresearch#ConnectToday#RunToConnect#PARE2018#makingadifference#dream#yesican#lupus#makingarthritisvisible#idealist#optimist#changinglives#loveoostende @worldarthritisday #inspiration#motivation#letsdoit#raisingawareness#kickasswithmel @melrobbinslive thanks for motivating and inspiring me and pushing me 😘
I’ve seen versions of this a lot over the course of my life. What is funny is that every time I read it I’m like, “oh yeah” and it gives me pause to allow people grace. Outside of my young son who is still developing, other people’s actions, or inactions are none of my business. How they treat me or others is none of my business. Not everyone has the tools or maturity to right themselves, especially when I demand it. Not everyone is on the same leg of the life journey. Sometimes humility smacks you in the face and that is on Gods timeline. It’s not up to me to fix another’s brokenness, vanity or pride when I say it needs it. I need to repeat it until it sticks in this idealist noggin. It’s God’s timeline. It’s not about me. I have bigger problems to worry about. ✊🏽🙌🏼 I get it. I need to show bigger love through forgiveness and/or recognizing my own expectations might be unrealistic- instead of demanding growth or change from others when I think it’s required. Now I need to remember it. Maybe I will write it on my hand! 😆 .
... I tell myself I have enough time ... I tell myself I AM going to accomplish my purpose on earth..
Because I believe, or actually I KNOW that everything will come to me in the exact right moment in time.. #fillthegap#justdoit#unfold#love#evolve
I tell myself these loving thoughts because I love myself that much. @masterjournal