Tonight at the gym, to my left was a guy doing chin ups.... He was doing freaking air walks and crunches while holding himself up on the dang bar! He was killing it.
To my right there was a lady going freaking backwards on the dang stairstepper at a faster speed than I was going forward! She was killing it.
Everywhere I looked people were more fit than I was. Healthier and stronger. Able to do more. They were all killing it.
It was a moment of tremendous defeat. It took my breath away.
This week has been extremely busy. Up very early, driving to all day conferences and breakout sessions, driving home, preparing for another day like today.
I was tired.
But guess where I was?
At the gym.
Working super hard. Pushing myself.
Finding my burn. Working out.
I was killing it. I WAS KILLING IT!!!! Tonight I sense that you might be fighting defeat. Other people are 'doing it better.' You don't feel good enough. You want to give up. You are tired.
I get you. I feel you. Oh I feel you so deep.
But know this....please listen to me.
You are good enough to me. You are working SO hard. You will get there. You are a hero.
YOU ARE KILLING IT!
Everyone has a story. Someone you haven't met yet is relying on you to not give up.
BFA review is tomorrow morning. Tonight, I’m spending some time on mindfulness. Tomorrow’s outcome is very important to me, and one way or another, I will have learned and grown as an artist. But whether or not I’m accepted into the program, I know that art is the path I will take. As I look at my cork board of art that inspires me, I know that it is not the decisions of others which determines my path, but my own choices.
I choose to keep going. .
We live in a world where there are distractions on every corner
Millions of new social media posts
Shows to watch
Articles to read
Music to hear
Mindless chatter to engage in
What if we let all of those things
And just be
Just here and now
Your body, soul and mind
Oh, that mind,
Screaming NO NO NO
Every excuse in the book
Begging you to move
To find entertainment
ANYTHING other than just “being”
So much talk about “finding ourselves”
Then we run off looking for it
We travel to distant, beautiful locations
Attend retreats, seminars, and read self help books searching for the answer... But we are right here!
Our Self is right here!
We don’t need to go anywhere
We don’t need anyone to find it
But it’s easy to throw money here and there rather than to be alone, with our own thoughts
And turn off the distractions, close our eyes and go within... We can’t “find ourselves”
If we are only looking outside for it
We can’t discover our purpose
If we are constantly filling our mind with other people’s words and ideas
We can’t find a state of peace if we are constantly keeping the mind busy
Silence takes courage
Let yourself be
Alone, in silence
And come to know yourself
Come to listen and understand
And love, with grace and joy .
Okay so it's for a FACT that NF is shooting a new music video!!! These pictures came in anonymously from a person I don't know who it is but apparently they are at the shoot of the music video NF is shooting at the moment. Now, I don't think it's a music video for a new song but from looking at the tables and the lights on the ceiling it looks like and maybe music video for "You're Special". Me and @factnf were talking about that and I strongly agree with him he's the one that let me know of all the tables and the lights and I fully agree with him. And it would make sense if this is a music video for "You're Special" because recently like 2 days ago or I think yesterday Bridget posted her video of her vows at the wedding. THIS could be Nates version of a video for the wedding but instead is the music video for "You're Special" and it might be showing real clips of the wedding and now he's shooting the parts of him rapping / singing it. •
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