We’ve had a very slow lazy start to Monday.
I had this big plan to wake up early and go out with the dogs for a walk before ticking things off my to-do list.
I’ve been spending the last couple of weeks gradually waking up earlier and earlier to do so.
Today was suppose to start me being consistently healthy and living a balanced life after having pretty much a month off.
But then my fire alarm had other plans and gave me a rude awakening at 1:25am 😑
It consistently went off about 4 times within a space of 20 minutes FOR NO REASON! (I’ve since discovered it simply needed cleaning as dust was triggering it to go off👍🏻)
But after the loud piercing sound it’s safe to say I had 2 very nervous shaking dogs and I was scared to go to sleep just incase I did wake up in a blaze and we didn’t get much sleep!
I woke up to my alarm to take the dogs for a walk only to learn I’d been unintentionally snoozing it for an hour!
I was groggy and my head was pounding and after a few long tiring shifts I had no desire to get up so I listened to my body and went back to sleep and I’ve since had no desire to do anything this morning but catch up on my tv shows.
I’m now run myself a bath while the dogs continue their lazy Monday to refresh and have a restart on my day.
I’m going to get dressed and do my hair before walking down to the supermarket to stock up on healthy food for the week. 🍎🍌🍍🍇🥦🥗
In the last month I’ve learnt a lot about listening to my body and mind and not putting pressure on myself to do everything all at once.
My days and my moods are good and bad and consistently going up and down and I honestly find it very draining.
Some days I’ll stick to my plan and sometimes I’ll restart my day at 3pm and other days just getting up out of bed might be the best I can do and that’s ok.
That’s the things about grief, it comes in waves and is a constant up and down and I’m learning to live and deal with each wave as it comes.