this post is going to be a little different and a little more personal than I usually get. throughout the whole course of my life the biggest struggle I have ever had is believing in myself. So many people have told me through the years “you’re not good enough” “you are not worth it” “you’re not talented” “you are ugly” “no one will accept you for who you are.” “you are stupid” that it was molded into my brain and I started believing them. I started doubting myself. I started giving in. I would hide who I really was and act like everyone else because that’s what “they” wanted me to be. I had this need for everyone and everything to like me so badly that it was kind of like an addiction. I’ll admit, I’ve made some awful choices in my life that have lead to some awful outcomes. I now have a really hard time opening up to people because of what I’ve gone through with past experiences. I’ve been broken, shut down, shattered. But frankly enough, I don’t regret any of it. Sure, I’m still a little bit broken. And sure, I’m not 100% better. But for once in my life I finally feel like me. Not something I have to pretend to be for someone else, but me. If you don’t like that, that’s ok. I’ve dealt with this voice inside my head for too long telling me I can’t do it. Because I can. Life is about the journey. About enjoying every little millisecond and nanosecond. Im finding people in my life who make me happy and not the ones who tear down. the universe is on my side and always has been. I just didn’t open my eyes enough to see it. I’m breaking society’s rules and from now on being my best self. For anyone out there who is feeling the way I used to, please stop the cycle now. In my book constant self depriving negative thoughts are a disease. The only person you are going to life with for your whole life is you. Learn to love yourself before anyone else and realize that you can’t let other people tell you how to live YOUR LIFE. You are just as beautiful, vibrant, and amazing as everyone else. You deserve every little bit of happiness and success. So sorry for this outrageously long note. I just needed to put this out there.
The stories you tell yourself matter – why? Because the stories you tell yourself determine the actions you take. The actions you take affect how you experience life. What you experience (or think you experience), affects how you ultimately feel about yourself. And your story is largely based on what/how you feel about yourself. So, make your words and thoughts positive! #highvibe#positivity#liftup