keeps knocking on my "online" door. My bewilderment on the subject of colour in particular began with a conversation @rocknrollerbaby started on her personal Facebook, & resulted in she & I concluding that we're colour blind. But we were then told that is bad. Apparently. We don't see colour or POC ("people of colour" a phrase I was introduced to *sigh*) as something we need to "get to know" or support or God forbid be an "ally" to. I was even sent the definition of what it *is* to be an ally.... it made me want to CRY. When I moved to Tottenham when I was 4 years of age my next door neighbours were Jamaican. I played with "them" from sun up to sun down & trust me there was no them & us. I went to Catholic primary, junior & secondary schools & it was like a melting pot of the commonwealth. Every shade of skin colour was present & although you weren't entirely in the minority if you were white, you were more likely to be Irish than English. Colour is not something that stands out. Colour for me is normal. I totally understand that for some people they need to DO diversity, but for me diversity is an involuntary part of my surroundings, like the air that we breathe. Just like we don't consciously decide to breathe, I don't decide to "make an effort" to bring more colour into my life. Colour IS my life. My husband is British of Nigerian parents. I am British of Irish parents. Our children are dual heritage, mixed race. I'm not colour blind to my kids. I notice their colour every single day & smile when I notice that they're browner than me. They're gorgeous. It is not something I want to hear will make them held back in life, although maybe it will. But as long as this Lioness Mamma has air in her lungs I will propel them forward. They certainly WILL reach for the stars. So far the only complication of their genes is that their hair takes a bit of management 😂
I'm getting a bit nervous that it's now trendy to DO diversity on Instagram. It's almost akin to a fad. I'd rather it was just normal. But alas it's not. So #MakeMotherhoodDiverse you have my full support. I want to see every type of Mum & family on this grid be they ⬆️↗️⬇️➡️⬅️⏺⏹there is no ✔or❌.
💜Having one of those days where I just get sad about Emilio and Ruby growing up. I don't know why some days are different. It could be because my birthday is coming up and that age thing just won't stop, lol. 😭 But sometimes I just want to rewind and live all those young years again and keep doing it over. 😕Sometimes this business gets hard and I just want to give up. But is it hard or is it just me wanting instant gratification? 🤔 I've never been one to stick things out. Usually I get bored or am not reaping the rewards fast enough so I give up. I think that's the problem with most people. We want the outcome NOW with little effort. Well shit is not like that. ☝️ When I started this, I said I was going to do things different this time. So I just keep reminding myself of that and keep ON pushing. 👫 My kids are just getting older and I'm not getting any younger damn it. So, I don't really have time to give up anymore. ⌚ I want comfort, creativity and freedom in my life. I want to set my kids up for their future. I want to show them that anything is possible!🌌 Do you want to live a life on your terms? No boss. No asking for time off. No one telling you what to wear or where to be. I sure as hell do! I've never liked that "rule" thing. 🚫 If you're anything like me then you should check out our coaches sneak peek. This job may not be easy but a life of freedom takes work. "If you're serious about changing your life, you'll find a way. If you're not, you'll find an excuse." ✌
**INSPIRATION** My tribe really are my #inspiration. Not only do they make me be the best person I can (I want to set a good example for my kids - be the change and all that) but having children has allowed me to see things through their eyes. Being a mama has pushed me on to achieve more and helped me climb my mountains (perhaps even literally for this picture)! They also allow me to focus on the bigger picture and stop being so insular. I have learned that there is nothing better than a child's laughter and I work to live now, rather than live to work.
This Sunday I took both girls with me to church. This may not seem like much, but it was the first time I took both of them to church. That hit me really hard when I got home. I was sad, disappointed in myself and felt so guilty. How could this much time have passed and this is just the first time I took them both to church?! You see, I grew up so strong in my faith. I remember being a little girl, barely being able to see over the pews and can still picture my grandma on that bench next to me.
My grandma shaped my faith and was the reason why I was so close to God. Yet, after she passed, I pushed Him away when I should've drawn closer to Him.
This Sunday I sat listening to the readings and this verse was shared. I can't tell you how many times I have heard this but it was the first time I really HEARD it.
I needed it more than I ever knew and needed that day with both my girls in church. I am going to push away my guilt & regret and instead make a change to guide them in their faith. To teach them to hold close to God during all things good and even closer during the bad. Teach them that they can do all things through Christ.