I have the ability to choose my own response. This is something that I chose not to believe for so long, but with reflection, some harsh words and gigantic stumbles, I come to realize that I am responsible for how I react to the situation. I may not be able to control the situation, but I can control my emotional response and actions to it.
I used to be very proactive: meaning I didn't blame circumstances, conditions or conditioning of my behavior for my actions. Somewhere along the way, I got lost. I do understand that my behavior is a product of my conscious choice, based on my core values.
For so long I have been reactive, just like my training taught me to by while in Iraq. This is no way to live life because we are naturally proactive. I have made a mess of things but I am starting to recover bits of the old me and rebuilding a new me step by step, day by day. It took me time to get here, it will take time for me to create new habits to replace the old ones.
What drives you?