Another Halloween gem! I’m loving all the skeletons beckoning you to come up for some treats....or perhaps tricks 💀😜💀
The temps are finally down and I’m into everything Autumn. Went apple picking the other day and ordered my first hot coffee of the season. Who else is feeling the festive spirit? 🍁🎃🍁
A little glimpse in to my office.
This is where I photograph, measure, weigh and list (and sometimes iron) everything for @wickedcoolkitsch .
It’s populated with memorabilia including that incredible Hunter S Thompson painting by the wonderful @hieronymusxbosch
I used to try to do everything in my storage room. That room is bigger (technically) but there’s so much inventory and general chaos in that room that I started avoiding going in at all.
But that all changed recently.
(TW - infertility)
So the room I now occupy as my office has been, since we moved here 4 years ago, set aside for a nursery.
But, as luck would have it, I have unexplained infertility and have been under the care of @boston_ivf for the last 18 months.
I’m infinitely grateful that I live in a state with an infertility mandate and good health insurance through my husband.
Two months ago I went for my first transfer.
It didn’t work.
All the shots, all the waiting, all the hope, the little plans we’d made - dashed in a single phone call.
For years I’d had my life on hold figuring it was just a matter of time before I’d be pregnant and finally be able to live the life I’d always imagined myself living. And, although there is still a chance for me, I’ve had to really consider the idea that I, at 34, might not be able to carry my own child.
I’ll tell ya - that’ll make you change ish up.
In confronting that idea I saw how backwards I had been living. Why was I waiting to be pregnant before I started working on self care routines and my business?
Honestly, because I didn’t feel deserving of that life unless I was pregnant/a mom.
See, it’s silly when I write it out.
I’m deserving of the life I want with or without being pregnant.
But I would’ve never had this clarity without this first attempt failing.
So, for now, the nursery is my office and if you’ve been following my business page you’ll know what a good move that’s been for me. 😅 that was a long one. Thanks for reading. Thanks for following and I promise to keep filling your feed with pretty pictures and my rambling thoughts 💗