Gratitude is such a powerful practice.
Last night I was posting about my beautiful day and listing the things that I was grateful for and the one that resonated the most and that I felt I needed to focus on was that my body was able to walk me around Hylands Park. This could seem like such a simple thing to be grateful for but for me, it is something I do not take for granted.
Sometimes we forget what has happened to us, we forget the pain, the determination, the constant struggle of every day when we spend our lives having to have a smiling face and show the world we are okay.
After having back surgery in late 2013 my body has been a thing of wonder to me, I still suffer almost daily but have learnt copings and found stretches, food and meditation to be great healers. ..
The biggest healer is a healthy respect for my body.
Appreciating every inch and small thing it can do. Being able to stand straight and tall, being able to run up the stairs. Being able to stand for long enough to wash my hair, such simple things, but all things that I couldn’t do for weeks and months.
Today I sit and marvel at this human in front of me. How much I love who I have become and how I have not let anything get in the way of my very very big dreams. How much I appreciate my body and all that is does for me.
I spend my life at work hearing people belittle their body, and hate themselves and talk badly about themselves. Please, just take a moment to marvel in who and what you are. What your body has allowed you to do and where it has got you to today.
For little daily reminds check out the #tinybeautifulmoments ebook in the library section of mimosabeauty.co.uk where I have put all of my daily practices into an ebook.
One of my favourite meals pre-surgery, a tremazino sandwich. Eggplant, oven roasted tomatoes, fresh mozzarella and salami. Tonight, it’s without bread but smells just the same! #postsurgery#gastricsleeve
I had my shoulder post surgery appointment Today. I told Doc that I am feeling slightly more human Today Although, I am still in quite a bit of pain and am super uncomfortable. it’s improving and that’s all that matters to me. One pic is of my dodgy AC joint before he trimmed away all the damaged bone. Another pic is of two of the amazing incision scars my brilliant Doctor Reagan Brosnan created, I have another 2 incisions at the back too. I am so very blessed to have such wonderful clients that understand that I need a little more time to recover before going back to work. I am also blessed to have wonderful friends that have gone above and beyond to help me. #recovery#roadtorecovery#gettingthere#slowlybutsurely#shoulderrepair#arthroscopy#personaltrainer#postsurgery#shoulderinjury
This is gross!!!😱😱😱
The second pic is my uterus with 7.5cm fibroid and it's cut in half!!!😂.
It's really gross, so don't swipe if you don't want to see it!⚠️🚫⚠️.
I put mosaic though.
After i saw this, l felt even happier that I got rid of this gross thing from my body👾✂️👩.
After 17days from the surgery (total abdominal hysterectomy).
The pain of the wound has almost gone except when I sneeze and cough. I can wear pants and I can even lie on my stomach😁.
But I still can't walk long time or carry things for long time even though they are not heavy..
And my big belly like a balloon was deflated and backed to nomal😁✌.
OLDER PHOTO: post surgery.. since my surgery I have not stopped bleeding since. I have changed birth control twice and my doctor plans on starting pelvic floor therapy. I am just so confused as to why the blood has not stopped. With Endo you feel like you go one step forward then 10 steps back. I am frustrated with this disease, I am tired, I just wish I was normal. Endometriosis sucks.
I was outraged. 😡And appalled. 😟My best friend and mother of my goddaughters, Ariana, was in immense emotional and physical pain after having a hysterectomy at 34 and NOBODY in the medical world was tending to her sensual-sexual wellness. 😤
I felt helpless and frustrated. .
I knew my coaching could have supported her, but the timing was awful: I was consumed with caregiving my partner who was diagnosed with stage IV cancer. My plate was too full and my heart stretched too thin to be as supportive as I could have been. 😔
Instead of staying mad at the lack of holistic care she received or guilty for not having helped more, I’m dedicating three months to teaching women like my friend starting June 21st. .
I know what it takes to move from pain to celebration, numbness to vibrancy, grief to gratitude, and how to sustain self-love. I’m offering Self-Love Summer School (#SLSS) in Ariana’s honor, and in honor of all who are ready to reclaim their sexy after surgery. 💥💓💥
Let’s chat if this is YOU! Schedule a call here 👉🏽http://bit.ly/selflovesummerschool 👈🏽a or click link in bio. tag a friend & let’s get ready for a sexy summer of self-love!💥💓💥
What we will learn could support women impacted by illness, post-pregnancy, menopause, and other intimate shifts, so if you are called to #SLSS, let’s talk. #hysterectomyrecovery#mastectomy#boporevolution#postpartum#endometriosis#endometriosiswarrior#postsurgery
The last set of pre-op paisley pure loo pics I took.
Real talk - I'm fucking regretting ever getting this surgery. Right now I don't need to hear the 'oh but in the future' speeches. Because the future almost never happened. And my relationship with my body is at an all time low and tbh, the worst that it has ever been. My dream of being free of my loose skin almost cost me my life. Thats only now sinking in. It's left me confused and angry. All for a purely aesthetic look. All to not be tied to the fat girl I once was; the years of abuse I put my body through, and the relationship with a man that pushed my disorder and health to the extremes it had reached. To be like the other girls in the gym. To not have that lump in anything I wore. I thought the surgery was the asnwer. It's clear, mentally, my journey isn't at the place I believed it to be. But that is also ok. I've had a very tough, draining few days. My head isn't going to be in a good place considering. Because, to contradict, I know I'll soon feel different once I'm back on the road to recovery. In a few weeks everything will settle. And I'll be in a better mental state because physically I'll look alot different and be back lifting heavy shit.
I knew recovery was going to be tough; I knew I'd struggle. But this is a whole new and unexpected level.