I had been clueless. I had been believed that it was right after all. Then she said i should forgive myself. That i should not blame myself so much. But i didn’t. Because i had no idea what she meant. I had no idea that somehow, i had been thinking that i was the one to blame. That everything happened was my responsibility. That it was right, because i was finally having the “everyone’s favourite”. I was so blind that i didn’t realize that was all about selfishness. Then something came up. Something happened and i finally tried to reflect myself. Then i finally tried to think it differently. Tried to think that i was right, and forgive myself. Then something lifted up. Hate, envy, revenge, gluttony, lifted up and just leave. And then suddenly life is a walk through the rainbow. Suddenly life is a goal. Suddenly, eventhough life is still hard, it becomes a day with laughter and joy. And blessing with unlimited love.