About a year ago I remember sitting down and having to argue with someone for the sake of fitting in with a group.
Since then many things in my life have changed. Admittedly, I had always wanted to fit in with that group since I was the only white boy in it. I learned Chinese and began wearing my jade necklace on every hang out just so I could feel just as Asian as them or have other people point it out. Anything was better than being called the white boy or hearing a stupid Mexican joke being made here and there. I even let disrespectful comments about my brother's figure slide on Facebook just so there would be some sort of peace.
But as time went I saw myself trying new things and even saying I'd try whatever they wanted to do. All for the sake of wanting to fit in. But the more I participated the less I felt like I was being myself. From the way they talked, to the things they talked about.. it all just wasn't me.
So just this once I'm going to be open and honest about it and hope I never have to talk about it again. I don't like smoking. I don't like people that smoke weed. In all honesty, I don't like being around them much either. I don't like alcohol. I don't like raves. I don't like sitting in a car that smells like weed. I utterly dislike and detest every single moment I am around that.
So please stop asking me to not be myself so I'm not "socially awkward". Whatever the fuck that's supposed to mean. I don't want to be anyone's idea of fun but my own.
I don't claim to be perfect. I never will be. I've done a lot of stupid shit. My girlfriend, my best friend (both Daniels) can definitely attest to that. But with that being said I want my beliefs and what I like to be respected.