I got violently ill after my last post, and I actually didn’t make it to healer training. I had to drive myself to two hospitals because I got food poisoning from this bomb Indian food. I am back home in Venice recovering but the lesson I am taking from the desert is that I need to take better care of myself. I need to eat more and regular intervals. I need address my chronic back pain. I want to help people + gain knowledge but I can’t pour from an empty cup. All is well.
No one is alone in their troubles; there is always someone else thinking, rejoicing, or suffering in the same way, and that gives us the stregnth to confront the challenge before us.
Does that include suffering for love?
It includes everything. If there is suffering, then it is best to accept it, because it won't go away because you pretend it is not there. If there is joy, then it is best to accept that too, even though you are afraid it might end some day. Some people can only relate to life through sacrifice and renunciation. Some people only feel part of humanity when they think they are happy.
I'm in love and I'm afraid of suffering.
Dont be afraid. The only way to avoid that suffereing is to refuse love.
Paulo Coelho, The Zahir
Been in a funk for a few days...went for a long run today. I love it when I pass the 2 mile hump and feel like I can go on forever. My music is on and my mind becomes clear. Life becomes a movie and everything I look at visual pops. I notice the smallest of details and see and feel the magic of the Universe around me. The wind carries me as I feel its breeze tingle my skin. There is no time, its just me existing.