am clearly stronger now.
I think it's this thing I keep returning to--in theory--of how I never really thought of myself/ my body, as female until after I was raped. Beyond queer and survivor discourse studies, I have found my experience akin to that of genocide survivors - when men rape other men to humiliate them, since I was targeted as a male competitor.
I was broken.
I never wanted these pieces to see the light of day again, yet here they are online once more. I suppose it's a gesture of solace to anyone else still healing from being a team kill.