So here I am led in bed, reflecting on today. This picture I took earlier and I had planned to caption it "how the kids make me feel when we co sleep every night" but, they've been asleep now almost 3 hours in their own beds and I really miss the cuddles. I have done nothing but laugh at them all day.
Motherhood .. does some weird things to you.
I give it another hour before one of them climbs in our bed.🙃🙃
As you’ve seen today’s not been a positive day. The other half has been working because we have our livelihood and of course xmas coming up. Fed up. And the minute he walks in I just burst into tears... he runs across cuddles me, tries his best suggesting different things to make me feel better... I then mope and whinge and say “all I want is a nice relaxing shower...” he walks away comes upstairs with a little stool, turns the shower on and walks me to the shower and sits me steadily on the stool. He washed my hair and made sure I was steady, never rushed me. And it was that right there that made my day. Put a smile on my face and made me feel a million times better. I am so so grateful, I don’t think he realises how much that meant to me. Yer the pains still linger, but what a differences a hot shower makes. #partnership#myman#alwaysthere#endometriosis#recovery#thelittlethings
I used to be really hard on myself as a Mom. I’d compare myself to other Mom’s who were really good at crafts or science experiments or educational activities. I felt like I needed to do those kinds of things to be a good Mom. Thing is, I’m not crafty. I’m not teacher-y. And while Pinterest lends us so many great ideas, it all stresses me out. Not my strength. One day I realized my kids didn’t need me to be all those things, my idea of super-Mom, they just needed ME! Not stressed. Present. That’s it. They don’t need another version of me. Only the version that shows up. And so today, we did a puzzle & then printed off turkeys from Google to color. You would’ve thought I hung the moon. But no, just colored a turkey without getting up to do anything else. Eyes opened.