I've been a bit offline. Not from my instagram account, but from my emotions. I've been finding myself in the dark of the night, been finding my worth in the deepest of time. But who am I to complain? For the night gives me a new hope. The dark gives me comfort, because nothing is left to be seen. Lights go off, but turned on are the screens. Everything is quiet yet silence screams out so loud. Everybody is asleep, but the souls? wide awake. Searching what, that I don't know. Maybe just a pair to team up with? Because that's what chemistry taught us. The first shell of an atom can contain 2 electrons only for stability, and who on earth doesn't want to be stable? But maybe everything around is not chemistry. Maybe losing and gaining is not all we need. We don't need an other half to complete us - because we're already complete. We're perfect enough to motivate, love, support and be there for ourselves. Because, the harsh truth is that you're the only person in this world who can seek the best in you. You're the only being who is capable of handling your own self. You're going to be there for yourself no matter what, so why seek your qualities in another soul, which might be here for a different cause? It is not about finding true love and acknowledging it - trust me I've read enough stories and poetries to not believe in that - but it is about finding love where you're not supposed to be. Don't just fall for the appearance and call it love. Don't think you'll be able to love somebody you don't even know is broken inside. Don't be in a hurry and try to fit in as per the society, because you're one of a kind. Don't let your heart break for a reason you knew that would affect you and get yourself depressed. Love yourself, because you're one of a kind. The almighty, who made all the beautiful destinations you fancy, also took his time and made you. So, don't just catch up to other's expectations and lose yourself. Hold on to every moment and realise, you're the best of you that is alive.
~ letter no. 45 to myself (17.01.18) ❤